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My lifting shoes….

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 07:39:26 +0800

My lifting shoes….

My new dress. The one requirement is that it looks good with my...

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 12:29:23 +0800

My new dress. The one requirement is that it looks good with my chucks :)

Score

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 13:53:16 +0800

6 mile run today. Yes its STILL raining (how can it possibly rain for a whole week!), yes I ate my weight in chocolate last night. But I ran well, it felt good.

I’m going to have to burn my shoes before I leave china. Now they never dry in this weather and despite washing them with baby shampoo and drying them with the hair dryer, every day they are drenched again and they just smell bad! I should have brought the Vibrams…

Rainy

Sun, 24 Jun 2012 14:29:08 +0800

I’m not going to lie, I’m having a rough go of it this week. Dirty old men, a million moves, not being able to communicate, 3 days of rain, having to walk in that rain to 6 different apple stores to try to replace a burned out power cord, trying to explain the internet doesn’t work to the hotel front desk…again. My eye swelled shut, now my forehead is swollen, I’m trapped with a mozzie in my room and I have the bites to prove it. I miss my boyfriend and jogging in the rain has left me feeling like a pathetic drowned rat.

But there’s always little mercies when the minor frustrations seem to pile up. As I was going through my fruitless search for a phone card in the pouring rain (with no umbrella) a little chinese lady started waving me over and yammering on and pointing. I thought the little boy who’d run in and out of the store scared was hers and she wanted me to go say hi so I looked over. Instead of a little boy there was a white haired gentleman holding an umbrella waving me over. He was a kind english gentleman who just wanted to say hi to someone who spoke english. He asked me what I was doing here and chatted and at the end he said. ”It’s hard to live in China, it’s very lonely so I hope you’re doing alright. That’s why my wife waved you over. I get to speak english so rarely she knew I’d like it and she knows you must be lonely too”. I looked at him and finally let out the breath I’d been holding. I’ve been validated and it made me feel better. I’d admitted to him that I felt cowardly since I’ve traveled a lot and yet I feel really lonely here now, and it hasn’t been long. He kindly, keeping the umbrella over my head too said “no no, We’re like big dogs in a small cage, we’re used to space, parks, places to go, but it’s not like that in China. It’s hard, don’t worry. Good luck in your work and in your upcoming marriage!”

I never found a place that carried my phone card and I squished my way home 3 miles, hopefully not ruining my sneakers. But I felt a little less lonely. And the internet works now, even if it is jimmy rigged out my window and into someone else’s hotel room.

and I got a 4.5 mile run in today. Score :)

my birthday cake??!!

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 01:38:54 +0800

my birthday cake??!!

Despite

Wed, 20 Jun 2012 11:44:28 +0800

Despite being busy, emotional, moving to a third city in less then a week I have managed to run 5 miles twice and continue with my abs and yoga on alternate days and take one rest day (much needed).

I miss my boyfriend so I’ve been taking it out on the road and the mat. For this, I am proud. Consistency in the small things - like workouts and coffee and texting Dan at night-are the glue that hold me together.

Todays workout: AbripperX + 20 min. Yoga + 50 push ups…maybe more

Photo

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 18:26:48 +0800

Photo

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 22:41:59 +0800

Stronger

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 22:12:59 +0800

I did a sneaky 10k today before my 4 hour rehearsal and I couldn’t feel any stronger! Now to pick up speed :)

It was a windy overcast day which is my absolute favorite kind. As I ran I let the breeze give me energy, I felt the water moving me forward and the weeping willows, all in a line, reminded me of my childhood. We had a gorgeous weeping willow in our backyard growing up and I adored it like it was a pet. Running felt spiritual today. Amazing.

The Story in my Head

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 23:16:00 +0800

Yesterday someone asked me where I wanted my career to go and at first I was like “mmm I don’t know, I wish I did, I wish I knew what was available to me. I’m kind of a jack of all trades but not solid on anything in particular. I don’t know what my strengths are - I’m not a great dancer, I’m a mediocre singer, I’m a beginner aerialist. I’ve used my entire youth throwing myself through every open door for performance that I ended up not fabulous at anything. and I’m almost thirty, I want to have kids and I loathe that I haven’t done anything noteworthy yet” then I took a breath and thought, and started again “actually that’s not completely true, I know exactly what I want but I’ve been repeating that same self deprecating line for like 10 years, punishing myself thinking no one would believe I could get what I really wanted because I wasn’t good enough and/or hadn’t made the right life choices. I don’t believe I’m good enough most days. But I know what I want, to do shows on broadway in the chorus as a dancer/singer and straight theater and also move into film acting and eventually publish the 2 books I have started. During all that I want to get married and have 1 or 2 kids. That’s what I’m working towards. But I feel like that sounds crazy and like I’m one of those people that doesn’t have ‘it’ so why humiliate myself for admitting thats what I want? Enough is enough. I know where I want to be and somehow amidst all the chaos I’m kind of moving that direction, albeit slowly, so why pretend? I guess I have to stop using that line” And you know what, I think I have been working towards that without really knowing it. how on earth did I come to be planning a move to NYC, but on the other hand why didn’t I plan that sooner?

How can I get what I want if for YEARS I believed I couldn’t? Do you have any downer lines you keep repeating to yourself? Lets stop. Why not believe in the best of you AND put in the hard work. Why couldn’t I be in a Broadway show in the next 2 years? Why couldn’t you do whatever it is you want to do?

Running In China?

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 15:26:00 +0800

Killed my 9k this morning - despite the glass of red wine, 2 highballs and pretty pink coctail I drank last night trying to get out of my body. Take that hangover! How hot am I in a face mask AND sunglasses? lol!

Photo

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 18:41:03 +0800

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD!!! Once you are given this award, you are supposed to paste it in the ask of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it’s sweet to know someone thinks your beautiful inside and out

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 00:03:33 +0800

Wow this is so sweet! Thanks!

Today found me in two unique situations - recording my vocals in...

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 04:44:10 +0800

Today found me in two unique situations - recording my vocals in a studio and wearing a light denim onesie. I thought I’d never wear a onepiece ensemble but today was the day and I’m kind of liking it. “Rest Day” from workouts today and probably tomorrow - can’t squeeze a full run in between rehearsals, shows and shooting in the studio! But fear not, Thursday I’ve got a long run planned and I’m looking forward to it. Until then I need sleep and water!

on set today! Still squeezing in my 20 min. yoga and crunches...

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 20:42:00 +0800

on set today!

Still squeezing in my 20 min. yoga and crunches before shows. I feel strong!

nutrientnatalie: veganlovin: healthyandhappyandhopeful: yogadi...

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 16:34:19 +0800

nutrientnatalie:

veganlovin:

healthyandhappyandhopeful:

yogadinosaur:

*Insecurity Post*

The photo on the left was me five pounds before my low weight. I had a million dance injuries that refused to heal, I had no period, I had thinning hair, my whole world revolved around food and exercise. This was about two years ago.

The photo on the right was taken a week or two ago. There is over a forty pound difference between the two pictures. I have gained a lot more than weight though. I have gained new hobbies. I have gained friends. I have gained muscle. I have reconnected with my family. I have gained curves. I gained having a period. I gained life.

Yeah, my body isn’t perfect. I am still trying to figure out what the best weight for me is. I might need to tone up a bit. I have stretch marks. I have cellulite.

It doesn’t matter though.

What does matter is that I have never been happier. I no longer cry myself to sleep at night. I have never been more comfortable in my own skin. I have never been more excited about the future.

Recovery isn’t about gaining weight. It isn’t just about eating or controlling one’s exercise habits. It is about getting your life back. I’ve done that.

OMFG this is amazing and I am so proud :’)

you go girl! you’re beautiful and so strong. recovery is possible.

good for you! :) <3

Amazing post! Congrats and thank you for helping the rest of us struggling too

and my favorite…who needs a pubic toilet? Show of hands?

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 17:35:25 +0800

and my favorite…who needs a pubic toilet? Show of hands?

Running Win

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 17:31:57 +0800

I’m waaay too busy to post but I ran for an hour, I’m still slow, but I did 5 miles. The running is great, the view is better. More later…

Motivation for life: Who wants to make someone's life a little bit better?

Thu, 31 May 2012 12:42:35 +0800

Motivation for life: Who wants to make someone's life a little bit better?:

motivation-4-life:

Because I’m sick in bed with the flu at the moment„ and will be stuck in bed for at least the next two days, I thought it would be a good time to start this idea.

So first things first, this isn’t about fitness, it isn’t about health, its simply about making people feel good about…

My view while running over the bridge here in Tianjin…

Wed, 30 May 2012 17:31:53 +0800

My view while running over the bridge here in Tianjin…